Saturday, October 4, 2014

Her....

Her...


To you I am strong when it comes to her
But what no one knows is I miss her..
I pray for her more then I pray for myself.
Everyone thinks I'm so strong.
Im tired of crying behind closed doors, 
Hoping she will see what she's done to me..
Wasting my wishes,wishing she will get better.
Even though I know she will never get better.
I know no one knows just how much I miss her.
I remember when I would lay my head on her lap.
When she would run her fingers threw my hair,
When she told me she would do everything she could to keep me with her
and that if she lost me she'd go crazy...
I would of never guessed in a million years she would try and get rid of me.
I never new she would go this kind of crazy..
It hurts to know she would chose a pill over her children.
She's my mom and always will be......
But theres a new lady in my life that deserves the name MOM.


To the lady who gave birth to me,I do miss you and wish you were in my life,But I have wonderful mom in my life now. I would not triad her for anything in the world.She has been my shoulder to cry on, My best friend, My diary, My secret keeper, but most important she's been the mom you could never be to me.


- Claudia baker


Tuesday, September 23, 2014

I never got why ..







I never got why I liked you.
In fact I never understood why you liked me.
I HATE that we don't talk the way we used to.
The thought of us talking gives me the chills.
Yes, I don't think I'll ever get over you.
In fact I don't think we will ever get over each other.
People say I'm dumb for coming back to you over and over.
I guess we just go together..... 
Yes, you were a pain broke my heart countless of times.
Honestly I'd rather feel your pain and deal with you breaking my heart then to not be with you at all.
Honestly You will always have a place in my heart.


-Claudia Baker.